well guys all i can say is I have been doing alot beeter. I have started reading some more books that seems to be helping me and changed my outlook on things.

Incase anyone is intrested in what I have read here is the link
http://www.encouragingmen.org/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&id=84&Itemid=29

I have been in a much better place since the last post. I know God will restore my marraige i just have to give it time and work on me

I will keep everyone up to date