Hi BRNR-

I am sorry about this. It's so frustrating and maddening and painful and hurtful. Two years ago on New Year's Eve- H ( wasn't Living At home) decided to do NYE at home with the kids. The fell asleep before midnight. h and I had a few drinks then he left. The next morning I realised he took my car ( didn't ask or tell me), and drive an hour out of the city to spend NYE with his new best buds and of course OW. He didn't com back for another day and a half all the while claiming he couldn't come back but really wanted to spend New Year's Day with the kids. So on the holiday we were basically stuck at home, with no car with the kids asking about daddy.

Sometimes they are better not to have holidays with. At least for now. Their minds are not with us anyway.

Last year I made my own plans. He joined up. Not for me but he was there for the kids as much as his mind space allowed.

I know this Is not jus painful but incredible that these are the men we married and chose to have families with. The wonderful fathers they once were....

It is up to us now though. We have to be strong enough because right now our kids have no one else but us.

I hope you are able to plan something fun and memorable for you and the kids. I know you will. Thinking of you xxx


TPS
Me: 44 H: 42
M14 T17
S10 D7
10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month
21/04/12 H is 'DONE'
04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010)
July '14 H ends affair
May '15 H moves back home