constant reminders - triggers

[too trusting]

also, don't say

I know that my sitch must sound pathetic.

no, it's not! and don't blame yourself. until now you did what you could, based on the limited information available

No one else to talk to.....

I know how that it is! that is one of the main problems with a situation like this, you can't really discuss it with anyone you know.

So scared and alone right now.

don't feel that way. we're here even if you can't see us

thank you all for being my sounding board.

I once heard a story, that when Abraham Lincoln needed to make one of his major decisions during the Civil War - he was getting lots of advice from all sides about what everyone thought he should do. he contacted an old friend from Springfield Illinois, who spent two days on a train coming to Washington. when the friend arrived, Lincoln sat him down and started to tell him all the arguments for and against each option. whether to make the decision one way or the other. and after 6 hrs of Lincoln telling his friend the pros and cons of each option, during which the friend wasn't able to get a word in edgewise... Lincoln said, "thank you, now I know what I will do." and he then put his friend back on the train for the two-day trip back to Springfield.

just talking about it with a sympathetic listener had helped him decide what to do. sometimes you need a "sounding board" to help you organize your thoughts.

Thank for listening.....

that's what we're here for! stay strong!