Up in the air, LONG

[Demoted26]

I'm sure trying Goto! I'm just frustrated with myself, others have all these deep epiphanies or do this amazing self-work. I feel kinda lame emotionally compared. Whatever, I am who I am & I'm trying to do what I can to fix what I see I need to work on. I'm just slower than most.lol

I do see where I'm better than I was at BD, but I hoped I'd be more in control of my emotions by now...and more detached. Yeah, no.
Guess I just need to keep on trying. It'll work itself out one way or another.

I'll check out your threads.I know I've read them, but will need a refresher.I read a lot, it keeps me sane & makes me crazy all at once. Some of ther people here have it so bad, my heart breaks for them. At least my husband isn't being heartless & intentionally cruel. Not that that helps me feel too much better about this, because I hate every second of it, but I do realize how lucky I am for the fact that I'm not in danger, homeless, starving, or listening to him spew (much), or worse hearing how much he loves another woman!