Hello everyone. I am still here. It has been a very rough week and I am trying very hard to keep myself together. Thank you all from the bottom of my heart for your support and caring.
As for the attack since I didn't actually see who it was as they were behind me the whole time holding my arms and covering my mouth the police cannot do anything. And no restraining order as I have no proof. It is so frustrating.
As first H was really upset and went looking for JW. Took H 3 days to find her. Of course she denied it and said I was crazy and a liar. Then H backed off from us even more. However the last few days H has been here a lot and has told me that he knows I would never lie to him like that. H is so confused he doesn't know what to believe--his words, not mine. I really don't care what he believes just keep her away from my family.
I am just completely worn down and wiped out. This is consuming my life and my soul it seems like. I am in a very dark scary place right now and I hate it so much. How did my life turn into this..I just feel everything is out of my control. I just cry and feel miserable. I was trying so hard..
All your words have comforted me in the darkest times the last few days. I need to try and start getting up and moving forward again. I feel so totally alone and then I remember I have you all and you know what this Hell is like.
