I did completely forgive her last time, when she asked to come home I welcomed her with open arms and heart, I wouldn't bring it up I wouldn't shove it in her face and if I did try to talk about it, my answer was "you need to get over it." I can honestly forgive but it is hard to do that when the other party continues to lie.
I know that my relationship is over. I want to move on, it happens that it is fresh and that I am constantly wrestling with myself. None of what you said stings. Its the truth. I believe in forgiveness and I believe in love. They stem from the same place. Growing up I was taught to forgive. I was taught about unconditional love but it is hard to believe in right now. I don't want to be accused of not putting in the "work" When I did everything that I could with the circumstances we, Myself and W were in. Nothing and I mean nothing justifies an A, Emotional or Physical. You made vows. Keep them. I live with my choices and deal with them. I do not run away from my problems, I cannot control her actions nor do I want to. I pray her eyes to be opened and to have her apologize to me, I deserve it.
Me 32 W 30 Married 11 D10, S6 BD#1 January of 09 OM#1 2005 OM#2 Dec 08 OM#3 March/April of 09 Back together August 09 OM#4 May 13 W moves out June 2013 BD#2 June 21 2013 Filed July 2013 D final in Oct
