It's not too bad, only 99 degrees right now. It's expected to hit 113 before the day is over, though!
197.5 lbs today, and it's been a while since I've been to the gym. I have some sort of low-level illness that is sapping my energy. Dry cough, congestion, et cetera. Still eating right though, so I'm still gradually dropping.
Nobody is asking me if I'm dating yet, which is good. My friends are all supportive of my wish to reconcile and not a single one has badmouthed my STBX at all.
Haven't heard anything from my L yet, and I'm almost not expecting to because of the short week. I do have a hearing next week, so I expect some movement then. We'll see.
Feeling better emotionally. I still hurt and ache, but it's been less raw lately. Sometimes I'm even okay with it and don't want to reconcile. This has been a concern of mine from the start, and I remember voicing it to my W early after the BD. The concern being that the longer this goes on, the harder it will be to reconcile. I sense her resentment has calcified and I'm starting to resent the treatment I've received since BD; my thoughts are tending to go along the lines of "Why would you want to reconcile with someone who has put you through all this? She's not the person you though she was, and obviously doesn't share your values."
