I just feel like I am losing a grip at the moment. It is getting really frustrating for me that I work full time and when I am not at work look after S. She has him 3 evenings per week on a standard week so when I see FB postings that he is S is where he is because of W it makes my blood boil. He had a good report the year before as well....and it was my decision to move schools.....so I make the decision to move schools, he gets 2 excellent reports, on a quality time basis I spend more time with S than W, whilst she sits at home on her benefits (which she only gets so much because of S) and I get to hold it all together.......and somehow she is made out to be the hero mum.
All this is completely distorted and can only think what she tells her friends.
But again shows my need to detach detach detach detach before I end up a completely wreck.
It sure does take a long time FY and the way I feel at the moment I can't even bring myself to look at her.
The issue with S is that my friends are right. She has never had it so good. I have tried to keep a stable home here so that it the move etc was smooth for S. What I did not realise that at the same time W has never really had a dose of reality as a single parent. In fact she is loving it! and why wouldn't she. She gets all week to herself except for evenings, all weekends to herself and now she gets a girls holiday. I can't back down on that now but I am seriously questioning my logic for minding S whilst she goes.
