Husband has one foot out the door!

[chasingpavements]

I am already almost at the end of my rope already, and it has only been a month of DB'ing! I feel the same that my H probably resents me in some way, feeling that I am keeping him from his freedom and happiness. Perhaps that is why I keep having that guilty feeling, even though I am not doing anything wrong.

Had an ok weekend.. H was busy working away in the basement, and he got the drywall almost all put up. We even had some moments where everything felt like the old 'normal' again, and he make a few jokes. He must be feeling a little bit better. Then, AGAIN, we were watching tv and he kept on sighing. So I went over and gave him a giant hug. Then went out for a long walk.

I get the feeling that I mean nothing to him. In the past half a year, when we've gone out for social events with friends, it felt as though he did not care that I was with him at all. It makes me feel so bad, like he could care less about me being around and he is not interested in me at all. Why would I want to stay with someone like this? I feel I deserve someone who would treat me well, love me, be interested in me and want to do nice things with me and for me. I am starting to feel like chopped liver. I feel I deserve a lot more. This is why I am starting to feel so resentful....