The increasing of the Wellbutrin has helped- ALOT. It FEELS better in my world right now. Its the place I will need to be as I continue to move forward.
I now have a plan in place for what I will do after the house sells. My friend has asked me if D3 and I would move into his place for as long as we want (year +) . We would have 2 nice bedrooms- This would be a HUGE win/win because I would have my year (without a lease) to decide where my life is going and my friend would have a year of me being able to watch over his property and his sick partner- while he is on the road.
My goal during this period would be to pay off my student loan and buy a NEW car -in cash.
Friday night was the second night that D3 stayed at wifes apartment. It also happened again last night. It feels VERY weird. I miss her so much and meals alone- SUCK
Im learning that I may be VERY co-dependent and I CLEARLY get that from watching my parents as I grew up. My father would always say "I cant say no to your mother" and he does everything for her. Her drug is food and was smoking.
Ill be digging into this topic more with my therapist tonight.
It seems as thou my wife is using her mothers house as a pick up/drop off point for D3. W no longer talks to me and if we end up at the breakfast table together she exchanges pleasantries. There is ALOT of avoidance on her end.
As I was eating breakfast I noticed something VERY interesting on my refrigerator.......There is the typical D3 art, calenders, pics etc....but there are also several comic strips and a robert Frost poem and a Thoreau quote- all the same theme either meaning of life or living life to the fullest. My wife put all those up.
I know- stop mindreading. I stopped at noticing the pattern
Lefty- I have yet to break 200- lowest was 200.2- today 200.8
ME 38 W 37 T18 M5 D3 BD 1/7/13 PA Conf 2/11/13- Ongoing 2nd simultaneous affair Confirmed 4/19/13 W gets APT and begins transition out 5/29/13 First mediation appt 12/19/13
