As she was getting ready for work this morning W tells me she had another bad dream last night. In it she was sleeping on the couch and woke up to find me standing over her and coming down to strangle her.
I said "Nooooo". She was leaving the room when she added, "it happens every 4 weeks or so."
W continues to do much searching for answers to cure the pain she is dealing with. I believe she is journaling every day. Ascribes meaning to events in her life. Searching the spiritual. Analyzing dreams and interactions with others. Has a Dali Lama quote book and another inspirational book by her bed. Found a small wooden "El Yogui" head while on vacation. The story is the yogui was a very sad man, and when his neighbors decided to visit to cheer him up, he instead took away all their sorrows and then was considered a holy man. He too is now on her night stand.
There was a morning dove building a nest on W's (and other people's) car at her work the past couple of weeks. One of the girls looked up what this could mean and W read it all to me. It was a long list of possibilities, mostly about allowing yourself to fly in the wind and move on through life... but then again it could mean death was coming too! She laughed when she told me maybe her whole department was going to die together!
Told me "there must be something I need to figure out". I just listened and encouraged her to continue. At the end I said that I'm confident that she will figure it all out in time.
M: A really long time. Crisis: 5 years. She's still worth it.
Life is never made unbearable by circumstances, but only by lack of meaning and purpose. -Viktor Frankl
