But I also accept that I have been loving, loyal, and kind to him even when he was more than less so to me. I accept that I have done everything to shelter my kids from all of this. I accept that I have done everything to keep our family intact, even when it was beyond painful to me.
And that right there ^^^^matters, T. Really, it is the only thing that does. It matters that one day he will realize what you have done and so will your children.
You know, I have given my H many chances for an out. I have told him he is free to leave if he would be happier. That I did love him enough to let him go.
Yet almost a year and a half later, here he still is.
I think that is very telling, T. There is a connection he cannot break - even through his crisis.
I know that this trip has hurt you, T and I am so sorry. It is sad watching the one you love cause such destruction. Sadder still, that he is so broken he does not fully realize it.
Maybe what you need to accept is this. In order to be true to yourself, knowing who you are, what you are made of, and how you love, that this is what you are meant to do at this time.
