W made it home for supper. Talked a lot about her trip. She went to the concert but also to see one of my favorite comedians. She started that one off by warning me I would be jealous. I couldn't hide it and she knew. I was able to laugh about it and tease her. She kept saying she's seeing how the other half lives (city people) and sowing her oats (she didnt mean it that way-but not nice to hear). At one point she made a comment about how i wouldve enjoyed being there, to which my only response was "I would want to go with you. My position hasn't changed." She smiled and just said "I know."
She pitched in and helped around the house and stayed here last night to spend more time with the boys. She is trying to plan a trip for all of us to go out of town. And we're going to her brothers next weekend.
I'm really struggling with the thought of telling her how much she means to me. I know I can't, but it's taking everything I've got to hold it back. I'm afraid I'm going to crack and pursue.
M - 42 W- 37 S's - 9,6 M-12 T-14 FIL- diagnosed with fatal disease spring 2011 ILYBNILWY - march '12 FIL - died jan '13 W Moved out week later
