Oh T, I know that dealing with this day in and day out can be so wearing on you.
No matter how detached you hope you are, I know that there is always a catch in your throat. I know that there is that feeling in your stomach when you think about it all. That nauseous, unsettled pit there.
This is so difficult on so many levels. There is the beating to your heart, the undeniable disappointment in your h, the feeling that this just cant be.
I remember feeling like I was in some bad dream and why wasnt I waking up?
But sometimes it is best to accept what life has given us. I am trying to remember that myself.
This is what you have been given at this time. I believe there is always a reason.
I think you have learned what you are made of, how strong you are, how loyal. You might have known it deep down before, but, oh, how this has shown it in full color.
But I truly believe that this journey for your h had to happen, too, T. It did.
And one day you will know the reason why.
And there is such hope that you will have a wonderful marriage one day. Built of the strength you have shown. And it will be with two people who have weathered the storm and decided to build something of their own making.
But the really amazing thing part of that marriage will be in the knowledge that whatever happens, you will be ok.
