What the...?

[lovethehub]

Feeling optimistic..we were away for 4 days (w/kids) for a conference around S's medical condition. It's a great time where we meet up w/other families dealing with the same thing and our S has friends who have the same issue.

Long drive, took extra time because of traffic and kids were bickering and annoying most of the 8 hr drive. H and I just kept calm and were joking around the whole time.

Throughout the weekend he reached out to me a LOT (PT is one of my primary LL's and he now knows this). Touching my leg, holding my hand, rubbing my back, etc.. It was great and I really enjoyed it.

We had a couple of disagreements but we after we were able to talk about it and move on. In the past he would hold on to things for a long time, sometimes days, so this was a huge improvement and definite work on his part.

Last night I told him how much I enjoyed the weekend and he said the same. Today I texted him:

"Feeling very happy. Thanks for the weekend, all of the little touches meant a lot to me. Next time WE go somewhere :)"

H: "You're welcome, sounds like a plan"

I don't know if I should have sent that because now I am worried that he is thinking he isn't that happy but he seemed it this weekend. At one point during the weekend there was a group of us hanging out at the pool and he was in the room and he texted me "I wish we were here alone and we were in the room together"

I feel like we are making progress and as long as I don't do anything really stupid we will get there one day.