Here's the thing about fears, if you go back and look at your life you'll probably find that all the bad things that happened to you were probably things you weren't expecting, they happened while you were afraid of other things. That was certainly the case for me. I spent so much time worrying about money and my job that when I was blind-sided by BD it was a double-shock, because that was never even on my radar of things-to-worry-about. In fact, I always said to myself "well if all this other crap happens, at least I still have my M!"
Great perspective AS. Had much the same attitude myself and it did really make BD that much harder. Thanks for sharing.
Crimson, sounds like you are handling things as well as can be expected given the circumstances. Give yourself a break and stay strong!
Me-48,W-51 M-22,T-24 S- 18,16,9 Feb-Jul '11 Away from Home, after initial B date Aug-Dec '11 Back at Home on couch Dec '11-now Same bedroom, room mates only Dec '14 W files initial D paperwork
