Thank you Kate -- I do hope for both of us that we are well on our way towards the next chapter whatever it may be. :-)

Bug- love you too. I did not realise the NC was going to be such a challenge and bring up such emotions. I know I should not care what he thinks - I guess in the distant past (before BD) my passive aggressive old self used NC as a 'punishment' for H ... So perhaps that is why I am feeling mean even though its not my intention. And maybe a part of me is hoping that NC will spark something. Although that thought is forced away by me when I remember that NC is for me.

So.... Working on my mindset.

TPS
Me: 44 H: 42
M14 T17
S10 D7
10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month
21/04/12 H is 'DONE'
04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010)
July '14 H ends affair
May '15 H moves back home