Up in the air, LONG

[Demoted26]

H brought me back to visit my dad yesterday. Dad is finally doing better, kicked the pneumonia (mostly). He goes to elder care/rehab today, then comes home next week.

S & I are going back to our house today, H follows tomorrow unless he gets laid off sooner. I'm looking forward to the 4th. Its my favorite summer holiday...but the heatwave is kinda killing us. Not getting out to do much in 110°!!

I'm trying too be happy
for what I have: my dad doing better,my kids, my dogs, my house, getting to spend the 4th with our immediate family (H, me, kids).
I'm making family faves, H will bbq.
Just have to keep reminding myself..give him space, be friendly but not too friendly, dont do everything for H. I'm a caretaker & enjoy doing that. He resisted at first & wouldn't allown much help. Lately he has been. I'll look at it as a positive, along with his recent actions. Maybe its just wishful thinking? Only H knows, at least believing it is gives me a small measure of
temporary peace. Denial? Yeah, probably. I'm not sure whats what anymore to be truthful.

We may not be where *l * wish we were, but it sure could be much worse.
I'm learning to appreciate what I have, while I have it.
Happy 4th everyone...I hope you manage to find some fun in the day.