Went to councelling yesterday, seems like a good fit. He seems to understand the male psyche and explains well. He encouraged me to see h's betrayal and unavailibility to "love" like I do, like I deserve to be loved. With full Committment. He's a believer in the power of the universe and positive energy. He will help me through my struggle with my disposition that I created for myself. He wants me to focus on myself. He wants me to envision a better man from my h, him stepping up to the plate in appreciation, deserving of me and more. IF, he cannot do that... then to let him be. I went in in tears, 10 kleenexes, 2hours later, left feeling empowered! Then went to a friends house (referral for councellor), and she gifted me a leather wrap around bracelet, full of encouraging words .. like "i am beautiful, unique, ,awesome, one of a kind, etc"... super nice way to end that day. We hung out and watched a movie.
Today, I am going out of town for celebrations with her family.
I am very greatful to have such awesome friends.
M:46 H:49 T:20yrs myD:22 H distant summer/12 H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12 BD: Dec 2/12 asked me begin to move end of Jan/13 moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff) "agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)
