Oh Nero, your getting stronger everyday! That's what I am doing, your so funny, he doesn't excisit, I don't care one bit about any of this, it's outa my head!
Saturday, for the first time I closed my bedroom door behind me ( leaving h on couch) and it felt great! I actually felt releaved not to have him in my room, no pretending, no forcing myself to be nice, or care about what the hell he's talking about or watching on the History Channel again!
I'm trying to look at this from my perspective, no longer what he would think or how he would interpret what I do, free!
Enjoy when he leaves, your excepting it more and more, enjoy it! It does nothing to be sad when dropping him off! I even went as far as making sure H's calls go straight to voicemail, if he has something to worth a damn, leave a message otherwise, wtf do you you want!
We have to untwine and with every vine we release it feels great!
I think I I put my time in with validation, and it changed nothing, now it's his him who will step up or step out, I have to spoken to him since Wed when I found out he was giving EA $, of course now he's trying to talk to me, honestly I don't even look at him!
Nero, I agree your H still has some kinda connection to you, God knows...but you may never know what that is! Only you can change your sitch, and at your time, at your pace!
Your chair idea by the road sound cool! You sound like your a little eclectic in style, maybe a little bohemian in taste, sounds awesome! Maybe a little country sleek in you! I'm a little country sleek, with clean and basic! My D says I'm too plain, ha she doesn't know the me I packed away to be a mom and wife!
So this is your independence week also, yea you, no more lies, no more life filled with deceit, the truth hurts, but think of the behind your back alternative!
Have a great day!!!!!!
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
