We chatted, mostly upbeat and happy. I did make the mistake of telling him our 5 year old is planning our next Disney trip but says we can't go until daddy comes home because we've never been without him. He didn't take that opportunity to make any comments about coming home so I feel like crap, like he's never coming home.
Of course just last Sunday he made two comments about it and I ignored them...but it feels good to hear them.
This really [censored]. I told him he's not getting anymore emails, texts or calls from me. I'm giving him the space he's obviously saying he needs by moving out and filing for a divorce. He said he appreciates that and loves me. Whatever. I hate this. I married to have a husband, not to be lonely, sad, single parenting and cast aside like a piece of garbage, not even allowed to call him. I do not deserve this.
