I am so with you. Each day I have new struggles and fears. I pray often that this nightmare ends. But then I know I need to get back to positive thinking.

These are my PMA thoughts...


You are not in the same place you were last year.

You said "I no longer want to be attached to someone who acts, lives and treats others the way H does." that is huge!!! Honor your small steps.


You are anxious today because it seems like some things will be settled in the near future. Keep taking deep breathes and taking care of yourself. Go slow.

Also count your blessing again.

1. You have two healthy kids.

2. Although finances are tight it sounds like once things are resolved you will be comfortable financially.

This whole process of D forces us to change. So now you may not be able to plan a vacation but maybe when everything is finalize you and the boys can do a cheap spontaneous long weekend to florida via priceline or something.

Its okay to be a little uncomfortable it will bring you 2 steps ahead!

You are not alone. I struggle often but we are strong and positive for our kids. They need us to be happy and positive!

YOU CAN DO IT!!


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M 39
H 35
D5,D4
M 4
T 9
ILYBNILWY 5/18/11
Left 7/11/11
Divorced 12/1/13