I think it's very admirable of you to help your X make amends with others, even if you are hurting. And I think if you were able to feel good about what you did, that should count for something, right?
I like what you said here:
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So I let the pendulum of my heart continue to swing. I hope to slows or makes up it's mind soon.
I feel that way about my own situation as well, and how my feelings seem to swing between a whole bunch of different emotions at any given moment. I think it's smart of you to not make any concrete decisions about your situation yet and allow yourself time to have the pendulum naturally swing in whichever direction is best for you. One day at a time, right?
