7 months pregnant ... Facing separation

[lost_hope]

I try slowitdown. But I can't help feeling like crap in this state. I also think I need to leave in order to truly GAL bc like you said I see glimmers of hope from him and then when he pulls back react in anger. I also have zero expectations though I know he'll be physically present I don't trust him with my emotional state. I don't trust him to help me push this kid out. I don't trust that he'll attach to us after. Do you know how sad I am? I scheduled a c section (that he doesn't seem to care about) mostly due to my belief that he won't be there for me emotionally. I'm only on the fence bc I love him still. I wish I could hate him and walk away. But I don't. But you know it's soul crushing to love someone who doesn't even want to be around you. I'm trying to do this for my son but it's getting more and more difficult. And my resentment is growing stronger each day.

I read your story. How are you doing? Do you have family and friends around you. You seem like a very strong person.