And so the piecing begins.....

[Tryin2figuritout]

Hit a bump in the road this weekend and can't help but give me pause. One of our biggest challenges ahead will be our sex life as we've both come out during our discovery of issues with this being a huge lack for both of us.

We really started off our relationship more as best friends than lovers and for us to be successful I know our sex life has to take a dramatic turn. I'm just concerned on our sex life never getting a chance because she's getting all jumpy again and not feeling positive about our chances.

I spent the night at her house last night but she's always a bit worried about the kids and them seeing what she deems to be "too much". She's not wanting to confuse them as much as I don't, but I also know we can't be "real" with each other if we can't act natural because of the kids.

It's hard holding back and not trying to help her in her self discovery, but I know she needs to figure out all these things herself. This is where I have to step out of the picture and just continue to be the best husband I can be for me and my kids. Its just so hard to have survived things so far and to see potential for reconciling and having to just hold.

Looking for any advice on how to deflect those feelings of fear into something useful. I had so much of these feelings in check when the Mrs had no interest. Now it's just a roller coaster each hour it seems.....