7 months pregnant ... Facing separation

[lost_hope]

I can't really get help here bc of moderation. I don't know if I'll continue posting my story. Maybe I'll just read everyone else's. of course I "blew it" because I called him twice and then I followed up with a few not so nice text messages. He just sauntered in and told me point blank he didn't even read my messages to avoid. Condlict. He didnt answer why he didnt pick up my calls. I am soooo tired. My tactic tomorrow is going to be I'm not picking up when he calls. Every day he doesn't come back to normal pushes me further away. One day I won't care about him. And then maybe ill have the strength to take my son and walk away. I hate feeling so insecure in my marriage and like I have to scheme to get him back. DB is ultimately about saving a marriage, no? Otherwise it would be primarily called GAL. Well I've been bending myself into making this marriage work for years. Perhaps the wrong way but I know I can't sustain DB long term I just can't something about it makes me feel bad. anyway this may be my last post bc I can't operate around all this delays and moderation.