Planned GAL activities failed the festival was washed out on Friday And my friend cancelled today. Living in a foreign country and having a very limited circle really [censored]. I did alternate activities but they were not nearly as satisfying. Plus today he is at work and I knew he would be out late some nights but I called him twice after what I deemed was super late for him to be out without telling me and he is not picking up. So much for detaching. How do you not care about a person you love? I know he's probably ok and just having too much "fun" while working. (His corporation sponsors a weekend long festival and he and his colleagues are made to go to represent. So yes it's work but it's also fun times too.). But he was supposed to be home already. I guess if something happened to him the police will call me eventually . Honestly DB [censored] and I really feel inauthentic as a person to force myself to do these things. Why do I have to change who I am to make someone who has the gall to say INILWY to me while pregnant and who has left before possibly see the light. ( I do realize the main goal of DB is to help me but let's be honest here --- I would love it if my husband saw the light and came back to me fully). I'm honestly so unhappy right now. He has totally ruined this pregnancy.
Me 35 H 34 DS- newborn 8/13 T 8.5 M 7 H's EA - 10/11 INILWY 5/13 DBing 6/13 Don't know WTF to do 1/14
the festival was washed out on Friday And my friend cancelled today. Living in a foreign country and having a very limited circle really [censored]. I did alternate activities but they were not nearly as satisfying. Plus today he is at work and I knew he would be out late some nights but I called him twice after what I deemed was super late for him to be out without telling me and he is not picking up. So much for detaching. How do you not care about a person you love? I know he's probably ok and just having too much "fun" while working. (His corporation sponsors a weekend long festival and he and his colleagues are made to go to represent. So yes it's work but it's also fun times too.). But he was supposed to be home already. I guess if something happened to him the police will call me eventually 
