Hey PM,
I get how you are feeling. I get the addiction bit too. I wish I had some help for you, I don't. I don't know much these days, other than I am consumed and it is emotionally draining.

I hope that your path works for you. I know your pain and it isn't good.

Ttyl

M46,W41
D16,D18
M22,T25
BD 11/12
W moved out 01/13
Piecing 10/13
Divorced 01/15
"Whether you worry or not has no affect on the outcome. But, moving forward, letting go, and making changes can."
UrWorthy