I am sorry you are going through so much pain. You sound very sad and frustrated.
You seem to focus on what "stage" your H might be in. As I understand it, the stages are really best viewed in the rear view mirror, that is when you have the perspective of time and distance.
It seems you have a fair amount of expectations regarding your H, and you are understandably upset when they aren't met.
It may help you to keep in mind that MLCers don't behave like "normal" people, and "expecting" them to just sets you up for disappointment. Remember "Zero Expectations"
What fun thing do you have on your horizon?
Take care,
Me 46 H 56 M 22 yrs S22, D20, Twin Ss18
You teach people how to treat you by what you allow. What you stop. And what you reinforce. ~~~~~~~ A lack of boundaries invites a lack of respect.
