I'd been at loose ends lately. Not doing so well at my grounding routines. Noticing anger and resentments about P bubbling to the surface, which freaked me out inordinately. I really don't want to be going down that road. Zig reminded me to sit with my feelings. When I sat with the sadness and did some grieving, the anger and resentments disappeared. When they come back, remind me to sit with the pain, okay?
A talk with a friend today helped me realize a few helpful things. One is that I can see some progress in myself. Though I beat myself up for repeating mistakes, I have at least come to the realization that the path forward involves forgiving myself. And I can envision that it might be possible.
And just as sitting with the sadness about P is necessary, so is sitting with my anger at myself and the pain and fears that underlie it.
I'm being more conscious about moving outside my comfort zone. Practicing speaking to strangers... LOL
