Thx Gabby. Here is my day typically so you understand:
up at 545 am. Gym 630-8 am work 9-5 hour commute home at 6 pm Play with kids uptil bedtime 9 pm I goto bed at 1030 typically.
So it is very difficult for me to GAL outside of stuff like I did this weekend.
Monday's I am working my steps of recovery. Very focused on me and not her. My sponsor does NOT put up with my S H I T..
Thursdays I enjoy the meeting because I'm really making new friends all with common grounds. I try not to talk to much about my sitch but I do agree Thursdays tend to go that way.
Thursday nights are open mic nights. Absolutely love it. Playing in front of people again and meeting people who love acoustic guitar..
I will try to find another GAL activity but as long as I am home I can't just stick her with the kids at night after she is home with them all day long. It isn't fair or the right thing to do..
Interesting event. Her mother just showed up at vaca house. She asked my W to go and she said no that she was enjoying her break from kids. So she got in the car and drove to house.
I understand not to care what she is up to and honestly I haven't. The kids asked me to send her a few pictures of them on our boat. So very few text and none initiated by me. Always by her. Like hows the weather. I'd answer hour later. Great.. I don't know what the future brings and that is half my anxiety.
I'm trying to take one day at a time and sometimes for PON 1 hour at a time. All I know is this. I absolutely had a GREAT time with my kids this weekend and it was a sh it ty rainy weekend. We were out on the boat and the skies opened up and poured on all of us and we just laughed our azz es off..
