SAM, I'm so sorry that things ended up the way they did. It's never easy to deal w/someone who has walked away and created a whole new other life. Again, I am very sorry.
On another note...Happy Birthday or is it Belated Birthday? I'm sure your sailing in the race helped your PMA quite a bit. Your "team" did a very good job considering some had never done it before. I'm very proud of you and your "team". That took a lot of guts, will power and team work to do this race.
As for your wife...she's going to say anything to justify what she is doing. Please try to tune her out as much as possible and not dwell on the things she has said. You will get through this pain at your own pace.
Please take care of yourself.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.