Made it to 3pm with no contact. He called, I answered. As always, I regret it. I always feel worse after talking to him. It was short, he sounded grumpy. Said he was just calling to check on the kids, they aren't here, he had to go. Whatever.
It's so frustrating. Some calls are "I love you, don't give up on me, we can fix this" and some calls make me sound like I'm the annoying nerd girl in his junior high science class and he's just trying to brush me off and I won't get the hint, "just calling to check on the kids, grump, bye".
I think next time he calls and they aren't around I won't answer. On the rare occasion that I don't answer he definitely notices and calls repeatedly until I do...ir gets grumpy about me not answering and says it always makes him think I'm avoiding him. This is the most messed up situation ever. I do not know how my life ended up like this.
