How nice to check and find so many friendly greetings!!
Pardon me just a minute, those d*mned cats turned S20's stereo on... AGAIN lol
Ok... I unplugged it this time - just NOT my kind of music, and the volume is broken so its either loud or louder and right on top of my head...
H is off to the casino.
Originally Posted By: Portia
Can I relate the ANGER, so deep that it feels an awful lot like hate.
Yep, you know right where I am Portia. One of the more recent "talks" H and I had he was defending his R with OW because it was "just talk" (and I do believe that is "just a lie") and he said "it would never go any where. I've done the same thing with numerous women and most of time these things don't develop into anything."
Did I share this before? I can't remember.
Anyway, beyond his questionable choice of defense argument, that phrase "numerous women" is just ECHOING in my head like you wouldn't frikkin believe. I can actually SEE it, floating on top of H's head like a cartoon bubble.
And to realize how pervasive this means his infidelity has been over the years. That while I was taking care of him, our 4 children (and for a while also his D from M#1) and the house he was "taking care" of "numerous women".
But in the surreality of this shaken up snow globe called MizJay's world... WTF am I supposed to do?
I don't want to shake up the twin's senior year so I have to find a way to suck it up and carry on.
And I don't want to go on a lengthy car ride with H, and I don't want to go see his parents. Right or wrong, and I'm sure its wrong, but right now they are not on my favorite people list. I'm sorry for their troubles and certainly don't wish them any harm or ill, but I don't want to visit.
If the border guard doesn't save me I think I'll just be unable to get the time off work. And noooo, there's no money for a side trip.
Ooops, gotta run.
Thanks again for stopping by (TnD!! Nice to "see" you again - I've been wondering how you were doing.)
Me 46 H 56 M 22 yrs S22, D20, Twin Ss18
You teach people how to treat you by what you allow. What you stop. And what you reinforce. ~~~~~~~ A lack of boundaries invites a lack of respect.
