Moving forward together from a mess

[cbtdad]

I am just kind of journaling here...

The last week or so has been pretty good. Not great, but nothing major.
A couple of times I have left her moms pretty quickly because I could feel myself getting frustrated and impatient. She noticed it for sure and mentioned it. I told her I left because I don't what to blow up or start an argument. I told her I know this isn't the way to handle it, but that it just gets so frustrating. The biggest difference between now and a year ago is that we communicate so much better.
The MC said that this was going to be tough timing because my heart is fully into it and hers isnt yet. It's been a month and we still haven't even slept in same bed together. Not sex, just sleep. My LL is physical touch so this is rry tough for me.
I almost feel like I need to just give her and time space until she is ready, but I've kind of mentioned that and she doesn't want that either.
She is still on this kick about moving and has said that she would like to move by Aug 1st. I even told her that I thought that was ridiculous considering we can't even sleep in the same be together and she said "well I guess I better get over that"
You think!!!
Today I asked her if she had talked to her attorney recently becuase out six month agreement that we made with court is coming up in a couple weeks. She said she spoke to her a couple weeks ago and told her that we were getting along very well and decided to work on things. But she also said that she told her attorney that we are moving, but that if I decided i didn't want to move how much of an issue would that be with the courts because of our son. She said it so non chalantly. I was like are you kidding me. So if I don't want to move then you don't want to work on our marriage. She said that's not what I meant. I said, then why would you ask your attorney something like that. She said just in case things changed.
She is saying all the right things about peicing. She is saying this is what she wants and that she knows its going to take a lot of work. And she is happy we have such a good MC. BUT her actions don't seem to be in line with that.
I am trying so hard to be patient!!