Take it to the limit

[Takevowsserious]

I'm doing okay my friend. Not great, not terrible.

Finding myself letting my mind wander, and then reeling it back in.

Mad at myself because H has not had any contact, and I know my disappointment is my own fault for having any expectations. I realize that sometimes I have expectations and don't even realize it.

But maybe it's good that he hasn't contacted me. It has set the tone now, made it easier for me to expect nothing.

I was reading through my journal from this time last year. H was really off his rocker, had the alien persona going at full speed. I marvel that I made it through that tough time, don't know if I could do THAT again.

Yet, it baffles me that he is seemingly more normal than ever, yet off on vacation with FT.

My wonderful SIL volunteered to watch the kids so I could go to yoga tonight. She surprised me by bringing it up. I tried to swing it that she could come with me, but don't think the grandparents were too crazy about watching all the kids lol!!!!

Then, my nephew (who is close in age to S5), will spend the night tonight.
S5 is super excited!

So, some fun things this evening to take my mind off of H. I even organized a drawer too - I know what you're thinking - tone it down TVS, you are getting too crazy lol!!!

Thanks for checking in on me