For along while I have been trying to ignore what is going on in my partners "other" life. I don't pry/question, anything - I learnt early on I would rather not know.
I suspected an A very early on, which he denied. Said he wished he could have an affair, because then I would hate him and it would make the sitch easier. when I found txt on mobile he said I could have he drove straight home from work to reassure me. Of course this was all months ago now.
I knew he had a "friend" in the new social group he joined. She not only was a big part of the group he joined, but they shared similar other interests (cars/writing). She is very involved in both (her career). I met her on a couple of occasions before BD - she def had her eyes/claws out for him but is oh so polite and well mannered. To cut a long story short although I have absolutely no proof I believe he is now living with her. I try and convince myself this is just a convinience, but I have a horrible suspicion it isn't.
I opened an email today from Partners aunt. It was sent to an address we shared(until recently) the title just said news. I opened it because it was from his mums sister. His mum has terminal cancer and I thought it was to tell me something. I knew my partner had given her a new email address after she sent another mail here a few weeks back.
The mail said:
Hi P I understand congratulations are in order. True? is so many of them love Aunt.
He has very little contact with his family, must be big news. I cannot get it out of my head that he is going to marry her. WTF He was here on tues and said nothing to me about it (par for the course - I seem to get all news by default or accident)
This is eating me up inside. I have been convinced from the start that we would finish this together (however long it took) -these thoughts are killing me...
