One more thing. The last two things that I wrote in my Wednesday conversation were against my better judgment. I have two different female friends who both told me to say what I said and basically escalate the conversation. I know it may have been a mistake, but they both still insist that it was the attractive thing to do.
They both know my situation in detail and one has experience as an ex in a similar situation. I read a lot about attraction and relationships and pursuing in a non-needy way can actually be attractive. Still I hope I didn't set myself back too far.

Wednesday afternoon
Me: We got a tax refund! Red or Black? Quick!!
Her: I don’t understand. (I thought for sure she would get it right away)
Me: I’m at the roulette wheel.. Red or black or should we do green?
Her: I’m laughing now… How much? Enough to plan Vegas trip to double our $$$
Me: xxxx fed xxxx state. But it’s all gone now. I went with green
Her: you suck!!! Was looking forward to going to Vegas. Do we need to meet for signatures?
Me: Maybe.. Waiting to hear back from Midge. Can still do Vegas.. As I recall I have some southwest credit
Her: Yes, u have southwest credit!!! Let me know
Me: I’ll let you know what Midge says, but Im ready to book Vegas right now. I’m feeling in the mood for an adventure, and you should come along for the ride!
Her: I would love to but really can’t afford the trip
Me (hour later): Get your black dress ready, give me some dates, trip is on me Kimberly


Me-45
W-44
T-7 years
M-3 years (4th anniversary July 13, but we're separated)
Kids from previous relationships (s14 d16 mine, s23, s24 hers)