Thank you, Harrier. It's nice to hear from you again and I hope you are well.
The implosion of this attempted reco kind of sent me back to that mindset that follows the first bomb. You know, where you feel like you're falling down a well and you keep clawing at the walls looking for something to hang on to and break the fall. Logic, reasoning, facts, feelings....you look for all of it to cling to and it just doesn't exist at the moment. I guess that's why I ask so many questions and wonder what she's thinking so much. Feeling that if I could just make sense of something and connect the dots it would be soothing of give me some peace.....break the fall.
I'm getting over it and accepting that I will not find anything to make sense right now. It hurts less and less, but never hits zero.
25 basically penned the ultimate truth about my situation in her closing words yesterday. Not much I can say to argue that.
