This is so hard. It is a death, isnt it, of what you had and of what you thought your life was going to be.
So, you are grieving. You have to go through all the stages to come out the other side. And the thing is, that you go back and around the stages before you get to where you need to be.
Dont be so hard on yourself. We all do this in our own time, in our own way.
