Is it too soon to give up hope?

[2ndtimearoundCA]

I absolutely understand that things would be much better if I could make myself more financially stable. THIS is my primary focus and I work on it from many angles everyday. I am in good physical shape, I have lots of good friends, I have a life. The one thing at could still be improved is my financial stability. So my 180s are all about trying new things to generate income or land a better job.

The business I am starting will be in addition to everything else that I am doing and will be like a hobby for me. It should generate a positive income flow pretty quickly and will help supplement my other work.

I have two teenage kids... a 16 year old daughter and a 14 year old son. Both are from a previous marriage. They live with me 50% of the time. I have tried to talk to them about the absence of their stepmom and they say they don't care and think I should move on. It has been difficult to get them to open up, but I know they are hurting a little. I do my best to be a great dad to my kids. My wife has two sons from her previous marriage. They are 24 and 22. My daughter and 22 year old stepson still communicate through Facebook.

When my wife left she cut all ties with my kids and everyone else in my family. My sister has tried to keep in touch with my wife and has been reaching out quite a bit. My sister and my wife may be having lunch soon. I don't know if that is a good thing

My situation, likes everyone's, is unique. I definitely could have been a better husband. This originally led me to believe that I was in a classic WAW situation. However my wife's actions since leaving leads me to believe that she is in a midlife crisis. Her behavior has completely changed and she is being self destructive. I know that there is a lot of drinking and she mentioned some drugs as well, and I imagine lots of sex. I don't know for sure about the sex, but she talked to me about purchasing items at an adult book store. She was trying to explain to me that she is too wild for me and at I could not handle the "real" her. It was as if she was trying to shock me into not liking her. It was also her way of taking some of the blame for the failed relationship. Basically saying we are two different people.

I really appreciate all the input I get from many sources about my situation. I met a female friend (strictly friends) from another forum like this one. We are in similar situations and give each other a lot of advice. That relationship helps me a lot.