Reading your comments over the last weeks, it seems as if you've slipped into overthinking mode. I mean you think about your XW reaction/thoughts on way too much stuff
Like, what is XW going to think of our trip, what does XW think of my limited contact, does XW think of the time we were reco, what does XW think about the embryo. Etc.
It has to be exhausting. You know it's also a big waste of time because you have no way of knowing, you might be wrong and it doesn't matter. I know it's hard to not have your mind go there.
I believe you are having trouble detaching. It's more than going dark. In fact it's more than any physical action you can do.
I do wish I could offer a step-by-step approach to detatching but it doesn't work like that.
Lastly with respect to your Godly experience in Dec. He operates on his time table. Remember that.
Patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet. --Jean Jacques Rousseau.
