Snodderly, my stress is completely related to finances, my house and basically being jerked around for so long. I released my H emotionally long ago. I don't like who he is. I don't respect him as a man or a father. I am just struggling to regain my footing and find myself again. I want to be able to do that for my boys.
I met with my attorney yesterday and she plans to agree to the last offer that was submitted to my old attorney. She is really surprised that so many good offers weren't accepted. I had a bad feeling about that attorney. I wish I would have followed my gut and made a change. Again, my lack of money has prevented me from taking action in all areas of my life. H has had plenty and the freedom to live in accordance with his latest whim - no kids or sick parent to worry about. I resent that so much.
I feel like such a failure for not being able to live joyfully. I'm trying so hard, but can't seem to pull it together. I can't figure out what's holding me back.
