Things have been good since my W returned form her trip on Tue. I have been good. I have been calm and haven't had any expectations to be let down and get my feelings hurt. I read something the other day that said 'too much analysis shuts down your intuition and replaces trust with fear.'
Pretty interesting I think. I can over-analyze like no one else! And then my imagination runs away with me and everything my W does, says, doesn't do or say, has some hidden alterior meaning/motive. I've been trying to keep that thought in my head during this "visit.' I don't know... It kind of reminds me of two things. 1 - I can only control my own emotions and actions and 2- Let go and let God.
UPDATE: W and I have had a nice time. We had dinner with our neighbor and her son Wed. night and last night we stayed home and made sushi together. A first for both of us. It was fun! We laughed a lot. Since she came home she has slept in our bed. (during the 1st visit she would sleep in the guest room) She didn't make a big deal of it. I told her the guest room was ready for her when I went to bed on Tue. night and she responded "I was just going to sleep in our room if that's ok with you." I gave a low key "of course." So no fireworks and no battle lines. It's just been calm and pleasant. That's really been my goal. I still have no idea what her plans are or how long she is thinking of staying. I'm not asking. My sister arrives tomorrow! I am so excited!!!
Yesterday a super supportive friend sent me this:
"The truth is, everyone is going to hurt you. You just got to find the ones worth suffering for." ~ Bob Marley
Have GAL Weekend!!!
Me(F):40 WAW:44 T:13yrs M:9yrs BD:2/12 (I saw a text) ILYBINILWY: 5/12 PA admission: 12/12 (began 3/11) S:2/13 Moves in w/AP D begins: 7/13 W moves home to R: 10/13
