It's funny how emotions can change from day to day. I feel like I don't even want to try anymore-if he wants a D then I should just give in.
2 Weeks ago I asked my H is he could watch the girls so I could go out with some co-workers from work. I actually got home rather early and went to bed. One of the co-workers, who is a guy, posted something on my FB that night about how him and the other co-worker ended up going to another place after I went home. At around 1 A.M. H texted me saying it was time to call this to a close (the M) and that he was tired and it was time (This had happened another time I had gone out with a friend. He ended up texting me 2 nights later saying that something clearly had happened, that I was flustered and that we needed to end this).
I called him and he was intoxicated.He told me he was no longer drinking during the week. I told him I was proud of him.He said I was never proud of him and then he kept asking if I was safe. After going around with him asking if I was at home and if I was safe we finally ended the conversation.
The next day I met my H and Ds for lunch. He apologized saying "I'm sorry about last night." I just said it was OK and let it go.
2 days later H and I were talking about a situation with our D. We were on opposite ends of what we thought we should say to her. I told him I felt like we all needed to go to therapy just so we could all communicate. He said he didn't like that idea. He then said he wasn't going to apologize anymore for anything that happened in our R, that he had already apologized enough. I told him I didn't want any apologies, I just wanted acknowledgement for all that I had done and sacrificed for him and our family.
2 days after that I got another late night (2A.M.) text saying he was sorry for everything. I just asked if he was OK and then told him to go to bed.
Interaction since then have been casual.Last weekend when H had our Ds I ran into them shopping and we all went out for lunch together. I told H that I was going out to dinner with friends this weekend and if he would like to join. He said he would think about it.
Well yesterday he said he was going to pass on going out with us. I really felt like I had been hit in the gut but just said OK.
