7 months pregnant ... Facing separation

[lost_hope]

Hi slowitdown. I am sorry you are in the same situation. When is your baby due? Mine is third week in Aug (trying to be a little vague b/c I don't want to be "outed" online). Are you actually separated and living apart? Or are you together but still apart?

I finally got the ILYBINILWY speech (not those exact words but that's what he meant). He is willing to try to "tolerate" me for his son. Nice, huh? I have never felt so low than I have being treated this way in pregnancy. I mean, there's no regard for my emotional state and how that may affect his son! I am so mad at him for that and I don't know if I can ever forgive him.

Anyway, since doing some more of going dim (can't really go dark) and 180 he comes back to me in little spurts. I do feel like he is genuinely confused, though that doesn't make me feel any better.

Regarding the house, we actually are not going to be able to be in competitive position to buy a house because we need more money for down payment. Urgh. So now we have to move back in with his mother (and that was another source of a whole bunch of other issues before and will be now as well) temporarily. The good thing about that is it delays some of those big decisions you are talking about.

I also agree that we have about 3 years to sort it all out, I just fear that my baby won't have two parents who are present. I am hoping my son will help me GAL ... not an outside life of course, but just to really take my focus off my H.

I do love my son so much and I am so thankful for his existence. I just don't understand how someone can create a life and then five months later want to leave me ... again.