Quote: well - good news and bad news about the dentist - (good) I don't have to have a root canal that they said I needed. (bad) they pulled it this morning - so now I need a bridge.
OD, get an inplant, not much more than bridge, and less hassle in the long run. I have had 3 roots and 1 crown, and my grandmother at 92 still has all her teeth.
Well the tables turn some - I just went to my Dr. and reviewed my blood work from my last visit. seems that even after what I thought was 4 months of Testosterone supplements my Test levels are as low as they ever were. Dr. gave me a prescription for the Wellbutrin and some sleeping pills and a Test shot. Dr. was also supprised that the levels were not any higher. normal is 260 to 1000 - mine is only 75. Doc said that I may have to see a spec in the area to fix the problem. After I left the Dr. and went to Pharmacy to get prescription it started hitting me that I would not get any higher and was REALLY depressed.
I was waiting for the prescription to be filled and needed to talk to someone and the only one I could think of was C. She seemed to be in a very good mood. seems her new meds may be doing a better job than the last ones. So this call I was the one that was real emotional and almost to the point of tears and she was the one to give me support. She told me that going to a spec. would not be a bad thing and that it may find out why my test levels are low and get them up where they belong. She was very encouraging.
She still did not have my payroll checks done though but said she would do them and would meet me at the gym on Sunday afternoon to work out with me and give them to me then.
She was also concerned about me going to a counselor and said she would call the one she is going to and get her schedule and let me know. It was real nice to have her cheer me up when I am down. and she said "after all - that's what friends are for"
We also talke some about her work and the not so good offer from the other group to "Buy" her out. she said she was not going to give away her Book of Business and she said she might have a lead on an new employee that can service her clients. I told her that that would be a great idea and that way she would retain total control of her business. she also said she was meeting someone tomorrow for some referrals that could turn out to be a really big boost in business. Told her I would pray that all went well - told her that I prayed for her befor the last meeting too and that I feel that even tho it was not a really good (almost bad) offer that the prayer was answered in that she made a really sound business decision not to merge. I told her I was proud of her and what she had accomplished with her business.
Well I am suppose to go flying tomorrow am and then do general cleanup tomorrow afternoon. I think I will be ok for now.
Glad to hear both you and W are getting balance in your life...
2 mos seems a little bit long to wait on the meds....have you had your thyroid checked?? Just a thought.....my h needed his checked and they changed his meds two times after the results......
I am not an MD, just know that it was an issue for his testosterone levels and the first two times he went to doc they didn't check......
Thanks again for your help with S23...he is happily ensconced in his new job......can't share much detail about the work with me but he got his health care all set up, a new bank account, drivers license and a passport and is apt. shopping in our nations capitol! Selling his sports car that he has babied since high school...and even found out what the inside of a grocery storelooks like!! He also waited two weeks before coming home again and brought his dirty laundry....but...he did it himself
So I caught the mention about flying...are you taking lessons or got your certification?
I've been a pilot since I was sixteen....single engine and twin engine certified...just love to fly.
Are you heading to VA beach with the bb group in May? I was thinking of joining up, I am about an 8 hour drive from there. Flying in would be a nice way to get there( avoid the traffic, nice airports) but right now I don't have the money....so driving will have to do.
Hope you have a great weekend...keep listening to those little voices that tell you to call her...you are doing exceptionally well. Hugs, Trish
hi cycler28 thank you for dropping my my thread - Thyroid, never thought of that, but my Sis has had Thyroid problems since she was a teenager Iwill mention this to my Dr. next time I go in.
Sounds like your S is doing well - I know you are very proud.
Flying again. After approximately 30 years. I was working on my licence and had almost 35 hours but ran out of money. I finally decided to start back again but since I misplaced all my log books I have to start from scratch. I have a total of 1.7 hours, just 2 times so far. one quick into course and a longer one. I whould have had another session but the weather kept me down.
I am on the list, and have that weekend blocked out. will be driving from Atlanta area.
Seems that lately that little voice that told me to call her has not let me down. Today I was really glad too as I was realldy down and she was there as a friend. It was good for me and I feel that it was good for her too.
This weekend I will act as if and it will all be ok
had my lesson this morning - really clear day with no clouds and a really nice day to fly except it was kinda windy and bumpy. did general maneuvers that a pilot needs when landing and flying in the pattern around the airport.
After the lession I met with a friend for lunch. I posted about him about 2 months ago - he was seriously thinking about Divorce w/ his wife and I loaned him my copy of DR. He read it but did not seem to feel it would change anything in his sitch. I guess he did take it to heart because they now seem to be doing much better and he said that he is no longer think of a D.
no contact w/ C today but she told me yesterday that she was going to be very busy today with clients and seeing a lady that may give her a lot of referrals so I do not expect any contact. I am just praying that all goes well today for her.
This is my first time ever posting, I'm new...1 month, but very encouraged to see the enormous amount of education available and warm and caring support. I'm encouraged to see that your sit with your WAW is progressing primarily due to your 180, and ability to make the dramatic adjustment from H to Friend. How wonderful! How this change in attitude is bring her near you instead of pushing her away forever. That is my Goal with my WAW. We've been separated since December, talk about how the Holidays can be depressing...I never new. Always stressed, but never depressed. I read Michelle's Divorce Remedy and with other friends of mine who are also DBing I feel that I am becoming more independent and self assured as an individual, becoming again attractive to my WAW. Recently I've learned to keep the phone conversations short and sweet, I'm ending the conversation - not her. I'm upbeat, sound like everything is just great, don't tell her ILY, but available if she needs help. Learning to listen, not fix, not counsel, not educate, not ask for a decision...just being there and learning to roll with the punches. Some of those punches are pretty hard and low...OUCH! I have no idea if WAW and I will reconcile, but I can't worry about that right now..it took a long time to get into this Sit, so it'll take a long time to reconcile..if that. Learning to be my W's Friend is so encouraging because it leaves the door open which otherwise could be closed forever. My days are up and down..but I'm finding the lows are becoming less frequent and farther between. My attitude is that I'm not ready for Divorce, I haven't filed, neither has she...although the typical "I don't Love You Anymore", "I don't want to be married to anyone", "Too Little, Too Late", etc. is everything she said 2.5 months ago. Oh yeah..I believe there's OM. She denied it...said it was just a friend, they didn't do anything, but I think by now they have...then I think and recall the 6stages of MLC. So my WAW/MLC I feel needs me even though she can't see that. She's 49, never thought I'd be going through this especially at her age...but Life is full of suprises. She's in the house, I've got an Apt. Learning to take care of myself in ways I never thought...things like, learning to be happy without her, taking care of my emotional needs, now going to counseling, learning to enjoy others company and companionship....but a goal I've set is to be Single/Separate..maybe Single Divorced for at least 2-3 years from now. I think I could actually enjoy that. We'll see...don't want to set unrealistic expectations for myself. Too soon to tell at this point..just a goal. One common thing I've been learning that when WAW, or MLCer is with a OP it seems to be reassured that it doesn't last, something they just have to get ourhtingeseemswOthing I've learned with the at of their system...it's a process. Another real life experience is that I have to very dear friends who years ago experienced WAW. Both said that had DB been around years ago they could have saved their marriages...and if they had "Stayed,or Held the Line" for a couple of years they would have reconciled. SPACE and TIME...does wonders. This is probably the hardest thing I've been tested on in my Life..PATIENCE...it's definately a virtue, something I see now that if I would have practiced...I would not be in this situation today (maybe). I've come to accept that things happen for a reason..I believe this situation with my WAW has brought to a point where this is a lesson I have to learn now, as I've failed to do so in the past. Thank God...I'm not on my death bed learning this lesson otherwise. Another perspective I've come to embrace for handling the ups and downs of either my WAW/MLCer...is to think: What if they had Cancer? Wouldn't I be there? next to her, just holding her hand..trying to make them as comfortable as possible...not knowing if they would stay, or go? or when that would happen? Could be months, could be years...who knows? But the answer would be "YES" if they had cancer, of course. It's out my control,let go and let God...sometimes the only thing you can do is just be there.
