You are going to pick up the pieces and take care of your self. I still remember feeling so lost and hopeless, sometimes it still creeps in. If you are "right" you are right. He will do what is is going to do and chances are it will not be nice over the forthcoming weeks. It does, however, get better! You learn to love and like yourself again and that is something only you can do. Sooner or later, you will look back on this from a higher - healthier vantage point. Right now you are in the "tryanny of the present."
One of the ole timers offered me some very succint and sagely advice over a year ago - " It [censored] till it does'nt." (something like that - lol)
Hang in there!
Me: 44 Bomb: 11/27/11 Divorced:6/12 Life goes on: 6/13
