So T1, if I am following correctly. - your wife tried to reconcile in October, fled, and now want to take it slow?

I was amazed that she asked me to trust her. There are moments when I seriously believe she is either unaware of what happened or just chooses not to see it. Yeah, I have every right NOT to trust her at all.

As much as I try not to probe her behavior, part of me want to believe that deep down in her being there is a logical, emotive, caring core that is just trapped and gasping for air right now. Waiting to pop up to the serve and say "What happened when I was gone???" Still struggle,to see how she saw an commented on so many positives in me and still bailed. I know....stop thinking about it.

Crimson