So I took a fully copy (all 3 credit reporting agencies) of my TRW down to the attorney this morning. She looked them over, asked what I was supposed to be paying, and what she is supposed to be paying.
The attorney said the my wife is actually doing an "excellent" job handling her end, especially considering the trips with friends she's squeezed in. We couldn't find any accts that she still had her name on that were credit cards or loans.
At this point filing for divorce wouldn't do anything for the financials except a permanent division of assets/debts. Theres no current reason to have such a resolution as long as she keeps her end up. She's actually contributing towards the debt reduction. Even in a divorce agreement theres no guarantee that she's cover her half, but for now she is.
So basically, do I want a divorce cause im still more or less insecure with our situation? Or do I want a divorce cause im insecure in our situation AND im trying to control it and her in some way. Guess its time to go back in front of the mirror and find out more about myself.
I've done pretty darn good for 4 weeks now on the DB, at least in comparison to the previous 3 months prior to that. My IC says she cant believe where im at compared to a month ago. I still have a LONG way to go thou, and readily admit the patience thing is still kicking my buttage. Its funny how something like this can take the jealousy, anger, betrayal and issues in general, and really have them effect your personality. Im so tired I don't think I have many emotions left that can overcome me, I just take them as they come in, and they're getting so much easier to deal/understand them.
For now anyways, its one day at a time! My goal is to keep plugging away. GAL getting extremely hard this time of year, my busy season, but busy is busy!!!
